A Tiny Strip called Dannevirke

The first time I arrived in Dannevirke, my heart was pounding. A new place where I know no one. Not even one soul. And I have to live here for more than a month. It was a feeling I didn't care to have, but a feeling that was inescapable nonetheless. And to make matters worse, it was so small it made my hometown look like an entire country! Of course, since a long time ago, I've become a master at disguising my emotions, and disguise I did.

Slowly, one by one, I got to know the people of Dannevirke, and as pinoys tend to stick closely to their own kind, especially in another country, I got to know the pinoy community of Danne too! And let me tell you, they're an awesome bunch! I guess the loneliness of the place and the homesickness bonds everyone more than any other feeling. Missing your home country makes one want to spend more time with people who have the same background as they do. It makes the "missing" part so much more bearable.

At first, I hated the place. Or, wait, "disliked" might be the proper term since "hate" is so much stronger and my discontent isn't anywhere close to that strong a feeling. But you get the picture. I didn't like how there was so little to discover. How there were so few people in the town. It was barely a town. Almost ghost town-ish. That's how quiet it was. And being a girl who grew up in the big city, well, this was deafeningly silent for me.

Waikanae

It's been a roller coaster ride from the very moment I step foot in this country. It's been fun, yes, but it's been lonely too. Of course, no one really appreciates true happiness until one experiences the bad things, and not having my family and friends here? That's definitely a bad thing. So I guess I'm more appreciative of what I had before leaving my home country, I guess.

Anyway, the upside to all this is, to name a few, meeting new friends, visiting new places, eating good food and experiencing new things. Letting my adventurous side loose, I am definitely enjoying the nature and greenery that surrounds, almost hypnotically, the entirety of New Zealand.

And Waikanae definitely proved a good place to have all of those. Tracy, June and Ate Recy invited me over to have a wee good time with them post-CAP (that one short time where stress piles up on you more than you could imagine and you get to feel like a student again), before I head off to Hamilton to spend my Christmas holidays and my lull whilst job hunting.

2012 Christmas Wishlist

My 2012 Christmas Wishlist. Just some of the things I wish I had but I don't. A few wishes and dreams can't hurt anyone. Especially if someone somewhere out there is willing enough to answer your prayers. <3

 

PS: These are in random order.

1. Samsung Galaxy Camera

          One of the first of its kind, its a product that incorporates all good things about a digital camera and Samsung Galaxy SIII Android system. It's not just awesome, it's AWE and then some. =D

2. Pink Lamborghini Murcielago LP460

             I recall having this same car as part of my previous Christmas wishlists and I have a feeling it's gonna be part of many other wishlists in the years to come. But hey, what can I say? It's my dream car. <3

3. Pink Trenchcoat

               I'm not really big on the designer outfits and I could care less on who made that. But if I get a pink trenchcoat this Christmas, I would be in cloud 9. =)

4. Tramping Shoes

            I'm not the most athletic person in the world, but since I'm going tramping with a bunch of friends in a few months, I'd better get prepared and not mess up the uber awesome adidas shoes I got from sisterette. =D

5. My Family

            Because I miss them more than I miss anyone else in this world. There's a void in my heart that only their presence could fill. And thinking about them not only makes my heart ache and my tears fall, it also makes me realize how incomplete I am without them. I've been to every Christmas tradition for the last 24 years and now, I'd have to spend my first Christmas holidays far away, in a new place, away from home, away from warmth, away from noche buena, away from the crazy pictures we take, away from them. I miss them every second of every day, and if I could wish for anything, it would be to spend Christmas with my family.

So there you go...have the most awesome holiday season everyone! <3

xoxo

-hny-

Squiggles and Long Walks

I don't really have anything sensible to say right now. Except maybe that I'm bored and want to go out but haven't bathed so I can't and it's too cold outside anyway even if it is summer and I still have to get my watch fixed and some batteries on it and that I need to get my hitachi flashdrive from nanay which I was supposed to get 2 days ago and I am getting the urge to buy something but I'm trying to save money and I have to finish writing my critical analysis on all my clinical skills for my workbook and a bunch of other stuff that seems to escape me right now. So there. Whew. That was a mouthful. =p

Things are going slow and yet somehow fast too. It's that kind of day when you know you have too much to do that you just freeze up and end up not doing any of it and then at the end of the day realize you just wasted an entire day thinking of what to do first. Yeah. It's a bummer. But I can't help it. My lazy bones are at its prime and I can't put up a fight.

The Light From Frozen Graves: A Repost

 

"But I just want to stop feeling."

"As far as I can tell, there's only one way to stop feeling and that's to die."

"That seems a bit drastic."

"It is drastic. Perhaps the most drastic thing there is. There are other ways to kill feelings, like drinking a lot or working hard, constantly, pushing those around you as far away as possible until there's no way for you to reach out to them but ultimately, the only way to completely stop feeling, forever, is to die."

"I'm not sure I'm ready for that."

"Good. You'll be a better person for it."

"What do you mean?"

"I mean that the most interesting, amazing people I've ever met, the ones who influenced and shaped the universe itself, are the ones that felt too much but lived through it."

"That sounds hard."

"It is. It involves living."

 : A repost from I Wrote This For You