When all seems amiss, it's nice to know that friends are there to help get you through the day (or week, or month, or year).
Real friends are not the ones who stick by you when you're at your best. No, they're just leeches. Real friends are those who stay by your side even when you're at your worst. They say the things you least wanted to hear, they say the meanest things in the most honest way, they slap your face with the reality of it all just to help you get over whatever it is that's bothering you. And when you feel that it's too much, that you just can't handle any more, they stay silent, lend their shoulders, and allow you to cry.
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
It's Still There
Just when I thought the pain had come close to a soft halt, the wounds in my heart opened up again and I found myself back inside that dark, windowless room with nothing but myself for company.
The tears have come back. The pain has come back.
No, that's not right. It never really left.
It just hid itself in the fine corners of my subconscious, ready to spring itself on me at the very first moment of vulnerability. It's stealth is incomparable. It's strength, out of this world. It's power, suffocating. It pulls at the very fiber of my being, waiting for it to snap at the immense pressure.
The tears have come back. The pain has come back.
No, that's not right. It never really left.
It just hid itself in the fine corners of my subconscious, ready to spring itself on me at the very first moment of vulnerability. It's stealth is incomparable. It's strength, out of this world. It's power, suffocating. It pulls at the very fiber of my being, waiting for it to snap at the immense pressure.
Sunday, March 11, 2012
Dissociation
When the pain is too much, when your world is getting too weary, when everything else seems amiss, lose yourself in the dark confines of your mind. Worry not, for this shall all pass.
Friday, March 9, 2012
The Last Day
The following would account for one of the saddest, most unbearable moments of my entire life. For this blog, I will recall everything that happened. Not because I find it nice, but because this marks as one of the biggest changes I would have had to face so far.
March 07, 2012 12:00PM
I spent the day with Elbert. My last day with him before he leaves for New Zealand. We attended the PDOS Seminar together. Met up at Robinsons Mall at around noon for some grub with his Mum (we ate at RaiRaiKen's...the only Japanese place there) and talked. I was a bit nervous being with his Mum but thank God she was very nice (of course, I've met her before but we haven't really talked like REALLY talk). =)
March 07, 2012 12:00PM
I spent the day with Elbert. My last day with him before he leaves for New Zealand. We attended the PDOS Seminar together. Met up at Robinsons Mall at around noon for some grub with his Mum (we ate at RaiRaiKen's...the only Japanese place there) and talked. I was a bit nervous being with his Mum but thank God she was very nice (of course, I've met her before but we haven't really talked like REALLY talk). =)
Tuesday, March 6, 2012
03062012 7.52PM
Dear Self,
You've been through so much haven't you? I know. It's hard. But life is always hard. That's part of the deal. However, try to keep positive. If there's ever anything I can tell you, it's that things will always get better. Life is a cycle. These days might be really hard, but someday, it will end. And you'll find yourself laughing again. And then, you'll realize how precious this life really is. How beautiful and wonderful it is to keep living.
Dear Self,
You've been through so much haven't you? I know. It's hard. But life is always hard. That's part of the deal. However, try to keep positive. If there's ever anything I can tell you, it's that things will always get better. Life is a cycle. These days might be really hard, but someday, it will end. And you'll find yourself laughing again. And then, you'll realize how precious this life really is. How beautiful and wonderful it is to keep living.
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