Generation Gap

Sometimes, it bugs me a lot that the generation before us blame US for living in a world that was, for one thing, created by THEM.

They say we, the younger generation, have become so "worldly", so "rebellious", so "techie" that we've lost all meaning to social contact.

They throw mean looks at us for simply learning to live through everything we've been given. And what's pathetic is that they were the ones who gave it to us.

Comfort Food

Mum's been going gaga over her "korean phase". She's been watching movies and series from Korea, listening to korean music and it has come to a point where she knows more korean stars than I do!. =D

But no, I'm not complaining. =D Because from all this comes our korean foodtrips! =D

Mum bought korean ice cream last night. Most were ice cream sticks of different flavors (I ate the strawberry one just a little while ago. Yum!!) including tangerine, red been, kiwi and strawberry. But she also bought some of the Fish Ice Cream she was bragging about before. =D

the hardest part

It's been a week since he left...and I don't think I ever got over it. Or if I'll ever get over it.
It's hard, missing someone. Yes, it makes it better knowing that I'll see him again, but...

...the waiting kills me.

The waiting will always be the hardest part.

I miss you.

xoxo

~hny~

Gems in the Desert

When all seems amiss, it's nice to know that friends are there to help get you through the day (or week, or month, or year).

Real friends are not the ones who stick by you when you're at your best. No, they're just leeches. Real friends are those who stay by your side even when you're at your worst. They say the things you least wanted to hear, they say the meanest things in the most honest way, they slap your face with the reality of it all just to help you get over whatever it is that's bothering you. And when you feel that it's too much, that you just can't handle any more, they stay silent, lend their shoulders, and allow you to cry.

It's Still There

Just when I thought the pain had come close to a soft halt, the wounds in my heart opened up again and I found myself back inside that dark, windowless room with nothing but myself for company.

The tears have come back. The pain has come back.
No, that's not right. It never really left.

It just hid itself in the fine corners of my subconscious, ready to spring itself on me at the very first moment of vulnerability. It's stealth is incomparable. It's strength, out of this world. It's power, suffocating. It pulls at the very fiber of my being, waiting for it to snap at the immense pressure.

Dissociation

When the pain is too much, when your world is getting too weary, when everything else seems amiss, lose yourself in the dark confines of your mind. Worry not, for this shall all pass.

The Last Day

The following would account for one of the saddest, most unbearable moments of my entire life. For this blog, I will recall everything that happened. Not because I find it nice, but because this marks as one of the biggest changes I would have had to face so far.


March 07, 2012 12:00PM

I spent the day with Elbert. My last day with him before he leaves for New Zealand. We attended the PDOS Seminar together. Met up at Robinsons Mall at around noon for some grub with his Mum (we ate at RaiRaiKen's...the only Japanese place there) and talked. I was a bit nervous being with his Mum but thank God she was very nice (of course, I've met her before but we haven't really talked like REALLY talk). =)

03062012 7.52PM

Dear Self,

You've been through so much haven't you? I know. It's hard. But life is always hard. That's part of the deal. However, try to keep positive. If there's ever anything I can tell you, it's that things will always get better. Life is a cycle. These days might be really hard, but someday, it will end. And you'll find yourself laughing again. And then, you'll realize how precious this life really is. How beautiful and wonderful it is to keep living.