2012 Christmas Wishlist

My 2012 Christmas Wishlist. Just some of the things I wish I had but I don't. A few wishes and dreams can't hurt anyone. Especially if someone somewhere out there is willing enough to answer your prayers. <3

 

PS: These are in random order.

1. Samsung Galaxy Camera

          One of the first of its kind, its a product that incorporates all good things about a digital camera and Samsung Galaxy SIII Android system. It's not just awesome, it's AWE and then some. =D

2. Pink Lamborghini Murcielago LP460

             I recall having this same car as part of my previous Christmas wishlists and I have a feeling it's gonna be part of many other wishlists in the years to come. But hey, what can I say? It's my dream car. <3

3. Pink Trenchcoat

               I'm not really big on the designer outfits and I could care less on who made that. But if I get a pink trenchcoat this Christmas, I would be in cloud 9. =)

4. Tramping Shoes

            I'm not the most athletic person in the world, but since I'm going tramping with a bunch of friends in a few months, I'd better get prepared and not mess up the uber awesome adidas shoes I got from sisterette. =D

5. My Family

            Because I miss them more than I miss anyone else in this world. There's a void in my heart that only their presence could fill. And thinking about them not only makes my heart ache and my tears fall, it also makes me realize how incomplete I am without them. I've been to every Christmas tradition for the last 24 years and now, I'd have to spend my first Christmas holidays far away, in a new place, away from home, away from warmth, away from noche buena, away from the crazy pictures we take, away from them. I miss them every second of every day, and if I could wish for anything, it would be to spend Christmas with my family.

So there you go...have the most awesome holiday season everyone! <3

xoxo

-hny-

Squiggles and Long Walks

I don't really have anything sensible to say right now. Except maybe that I'm bored and want to go out but haven't bathed so I can't and it's too cold outside anyway even if it is summer and I still have to get my watch fixed and some batteries on it and that I need to get my hitachi flashdrive from nanay which I was supposed to get 2 days ago and I am getting the urge to buy something but I'm trying to save money and I have to finish writing my critical analysis on all my clinical skills for my workbook and a bunch of other stuff that seems to escape me right now. So there. Whew. That was a mouthful. =p

Things are going slow and yet somehow fast too. It's that kind of day when you know you have too much to do that you just freeze up and end up not doing any of it and then at the end of the day realize you just wasted an entire day thinking of what to do first. Yeah. It's a bummer. But I can't help it. My lazy bones are at its prime and I can't put up a fight.

The Light From Frozen Graves: A Repost

 

"But I just want to stop feeling."

"As far as I can tell, there's only one way to stop feeling and that's to die."

"That seems a bit drastic."

"It is drastic. Perhaps the most drastic thing there is. There are other ways to kill feelings, like drinking a lot or working hard, constantly, pushing those around you as far away as possible until there's no way for you to reach out to them but ultimately, the only way to completely stop feeling, forever, is to die."

"I'm not sure I'm ready for that."

"Good. You'll be a better person for it."

"What do you mean?"

"I mean that the most interesting, amazing people I've ever met, the ones who influenced and shaped the universe itself, are the ones that felt too much but lived through it."

"That sounds hard."

"It is. It involves living."

 : A repost from I Wrote This For You

Across Boundaries

It's not easy being the new girl. And being the new girl in a different country is even harder. But if you find the right company, no matter the challenge, no matter the hardship, the journey will always be fun. =D

It's my last study day with them today and I found it imperative to right something to show them at least some gratitude for sharing the experience with me and making the situation more...acceptable. =D If it weren't for these group of people, I never would have survived the many weeks of studying and bookworming (yes, I know that's not a word. It's called neologism. ^^), so I am extremely thankful to these beautiful ladies and handsome gents (I think an "s" in this case is appropriate =D) for having shared some of its burden and making the entire time more fun. =D

Breaking Dawn Part 2

This blog has me standing on edge. Not because I'm scared, terrified and whatnot, but because I'm just too excited my finger muscles are tingling and my mind is working overtime that my fingers just aren't typing fast enough. =D Yeah, the title alone gets me excited. The Twilight Saga: Breaking Dawn Part 2. *SPOILER ALERT*

Life and Death

Let's face it. We see death all around us and we are either too scared we ignore it or too wound up we overemphasize it. Either way, it's not really living.

I'm not saying that I've lived a full life, because frankly, I'm not sure if I've lived it to the fullest, but looking back, I can say that, yes, I do have regrets (I mean, who doesn't right?), but generally, I'm quite happy with how my life has turned out and with how my past and present has shaped itself to be. I'm still keeping my fingers crossed for the future to be the best that it can be. =D

Moving on, what I'm getting to in this blog is that, in my line of work, we see death more often than the average person that it becomes almost a "monotony" to a point. And it's the worst feeling one could ever have. Because who want's to feel numb with death facing you in the face? Nobody wants that. I'm pretty sure my patients and their families don't.

Movies I'd Watch Before 2012 Ends

MOVIES I WILL WATCH BEFORE 2012 ENDS:

1. TWILIGHT: BREAKING DAWN PART 2

           Who can resist that vampire love? Especially when they make vampires look so...tasty. =D

2. The Hobbit
            Always been a fan of the Lord of the Rings trilogy. But more than that, I've read the book "The Hobbit" so its interesting how they would portray it on screen. =D I got invited to the premier at Wellington but was told we could only see the actors and not the actual movie. Not one for all that crazy scenes, I decided against going. Although sometimes, I do think I'd end up regretting that decision. =p

Penny for My Thoughts

In life, we don't always get what we want. But we do get what we need. That has been a line that's been passed down from several generations ago and I've tried researching who the originator of that line is, but all to no avail (as is the case for most "words to live by" we encounter daily). But regardless of who that was, it's interesting how selfless he got. How much of the world and that of beyond he sees that he is able to grasp the concept of just getting what you need and then being contented with it.

As humans, we aspire to have a lot of things. We want. Always want. Sometimes, greedily. Getting it and then wanting even more, always not having enough. I'm not sure if you can call that human nature, but if you want to, then so be it.

Quit Complaining

In the last month that I've lived here in New Zealand, I've noticed how much I have complained and got depressed about my situation. I keep saying things about being homesick, being lonely, feeling isolated, and generally just being unhappy. I have an insecure side I just can't seem to rectify. And then, one day, someone told me this: "You have got something others could only dream of having." And that got me thinking straight.

A year ago, I could only hope my application pushes through with little obstacles. I could only dream of being able to travel and experience these "greener pastures" everyone's been raving about. I, too, was complaining then. Of how unappreciated I was at my job and how unhappy I was with my place in life. And then, the good news came, and finally, after a lot of hard work, I got to be here. To be able to step forward and start realizing my dreams of the future.

Dannevirke - Week 1

Notice how my movement in New Zealand has been from a populated area -Auckland-, to a lesser populated area -Palmerston  North-, to a barely populated area -Dannevirke-. Funny, actually. It's like, I'm being sent to a place with less and less people everytime. Tsk.

Anyway, my first week here in Dannevirke hasn't been as eventful as one would think. Yes, its a new place to explore, but well, with Dannevirke's size, there really isn't much to explore. And because of a lack of public transportation, being in Dannevirke has limited me to either being at the rest home where I work, being at home, or at New World for some emergency shopping needs. And that's about it.

It's funny how much I've changed in just a couple of weeks. 4 weeks ago, I never would've thought I'd muster enough courage to ask someone I haven't met yet to give me a ride to work. And yet, somehow, I did just that. Crazy how this place changes you.

Palmerston North - Week 3

So, my third and last week at Palmerston. It was uneventful, to be honest. No pictures (new ones anyway) were taken because, well, we've pretty much seen what we can see. =)

The same routine as the week before were done this week. Wake up, go to school, attend lectures, go home, go on the internet, freeze to death, sleep...and the cycle goes on everyday. =p

However, we were getting a bit restless because since it was our last week of lectures, it could only mean one thing. Practicals. Placements. And work. More work. Which is fine if not for the fact that we were being sent away from Palmerston to some places we didn't even know existed until then, to workplaces where we knew no one, and to do work we weren't even sure how to do. So yes, it was a struggle.